Good enough

I am not sure when I became so damn pessimistic, at this point I don't really care. My Monday:
Wake up at 6am, pee, shower, dress myself.
Get kids up at 6:30 & get 4 kids dressed, fed breakfast, and ready for the day.
Start a load of laundry, empty the dishwasher.
Check work, home, and school emails; check calendar for "To do list."
Double check book bags for needed signatures and homework.
8:10am Take 2 kids to school, come home, swap laundry, clean up kitchen.
Change a diaper, play with 2 kids while prepping for tonight's dinner and folding clothes.
Do some homework, feel guilty about not spending enough time with kids while I turn on the stupid television so I can get some work done.
11am Fix lunch and feed 2 kids.
Change a diaper.
12:45pm Drop one kid off at the sitter and take another to school.
1:10pm Go to school.
7pm Come home from school; change a diaper and swap the laundry again.
Talk to husband& eat dinner.
Check kids' homework.
7:30pm Bathe the girls and the baby get them ready for bed.
8pm Say prayers with kids and put them to bed.
Clean the kitchen and finish laundry.
Study and do homework.
11pm Go to bed
3am-ish Wake up to husband coming home from work and talk for about 15 minutes.
5:30am Wake up for another day...school starts at 6:50am on Tuesday.

Each and every weekday is pretty similar to this one...and I am working nearly EVERY weeked 8 to 12 hours each day.

Unfortunately I am NOT able to keep everyone up with a friggin play by play no matter how hard I try. Yes, I made my bed, I am happy to lie in it...what I do not need is anyone else's passing of judgement on me and how I chose to get through MY life with MY children. A friend once told me this, "A lot goes on behind closed doors, until you know everything that happens there you have no room to judge." AMEN, brother Lucas!

So, for the millionth time...I AM TRYING! If you don't like my effort then GET LOST!

Pinewod Derby

YEAH! This is Elijah's fourth year participating in the Pinewood Derby, and it is the first year he has won first place in his division! Who knew notebook paper could travel so fast? Here is this year's car and some cars from years past. We have the "24" car which won 4th place in his first year; the "American Flag" car that won 2nd place and the most patriotic his second year; the bus...which ran like well, a bus and finished last the third year; finally, we have the "notebook paper" car...the FIRST PLACE car! Wahoo! I am so proud of him! Good job peanut!

Tooting my own horn here....I got the job!!!!

I interviewed for a non-existant position in women and childrens' services on Monday. The director told me that she would let me know in a couple of weeks...and included that she doesn't typically hire this far in advance. Jen, from HR, called me today to offer me the position! I had to pull over I was SOOOO EXCITED! Misty was with me and I am so glad that she was...I needed someone to HUG! I think she was pretty excited for me too (Don't tell her I saw it, but I saw tears in her eyes for me!)

toot! toot!

Yeah me! I get to have babies all of the time now! I get to learn new things EVERY day! I get to go to a job that I absolutely LOVE! Yes, I believe this is what I was made for...YEAH ME! Finally, everything that I have been working so hard for is finally coming our way!

(I have to include this somewhat ODD picture representing obstrical nursing.)

Nintendo and Sex

We have been childless since Sunday now, though it has been quiet I am so VERY ready to have them home tomorrow. The week has been fairly uneventful. I worked Monday and Tuesday, slept in on Wednesday and celebrated the New Year with Kerry and Don, today has been full of laundry and early spring cleaning...I am sure life could not get much more boring at this point. I did take in a series of "Ringing in the Romance" movies on the Lifetime channel while folding the eternal baskets of laundry and heard the most honest line ever spoken...are you ready? "...do you like sex? If you do I suggest that you don't buy him a Nintendo for his birthday..." The absolute bane of society, or maybe just my sex life. I find comfort in knowing that it is not just me...